Buddy’s Testimony
I was saved in 1995 at age 50. Prior to that, I was in the captivity of the human mind while relying on my own self-righteousness. In worldly terms, I was “successful”. I had a busy medical practice, a wonderful wife, three healthy children, a large bank account, a large retirement account, a big house, nice cars, a reasonable degree of physical appeal, and the respect of others. Insecurity springing out of influences in my youth had driven me to performance as the way to provide legitimacy when compared to others. I was victimized by success. This means that I had been slowly drained over decades of effort. Then I hit the wall. I had no reserve left. I was absolutely spent of all mental, psychologic, and physical energy. For the first time, I was a broken man. Having been driven by a fear of failure, I now tasted failure. My brokenness led to openness and that openness led to God.